“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.” -Lao Tsu
I feel everytime I write a new post I promise to get back into it. I would love to do better with my post and I’ll get there but for now this is what is going on!
Sooooo, the most exciting thing is I have recently got engaged!!! 🍾🍾 Which is cool!! I’ve been with my love for 4years, so we knew we were heading down that road. lol I also always thought planning my wedding would be fun but I must say I understand now why some ladies become bridezillas. I have plans with doing a mini series type deal with #BecomingMrsWilliams. To keep everyone in the loop. But we will see.
Another big decision that I have made but have been a little hesitated to tell anyone but oh well here it is. I am starting the process into looking into weight loss surgery. It is a huge decision for me. I never thought I would be ready to make this step but I rather do it now then later and I have my reasons behind why surgery would be best for me! 😊 That will be in another post so stay tuned!!
So I’m back and starting on a different section of the blog. The health section. So as I started my path on finding a better me, I realized that I had a lot of work ahead of me. I have a little more loving then others, and I loved that about myself. I love me for who I am, but there are some areas I would love to change.
The main thing with starting this new journey is feeling better in the morning. I’ve been on health kicks before and there is no better feeling than waking up in the morning after you have been treating your body well.
I’ve been struggling lately with making it too my personal training appointments. I really like my trainer he really work my body. He is really good at pushing my body to a good point, while not hurting me but keeping me challenged. I like going to him but it actually getting there for me. Once I get there it’s golden but it’s getting me there. I need to be a little more motivated.
I’ve been struggling with believing in myself and getting to a place that I want to be in my career. Starting my career and finding things that I actually like to do. Working out help me out with that. It helps release so much stress, it’s like the perfect high.
I’ve really been struggling with my PCOS. It’s making it so hard for me to lose the weight. It’s starting to really take a toll on my mental. I feel as if I’m trying so hard to lose the weight and changing my lifestyle. I know it takes time and I’m seeing the inches go away but not the number go down. It’s really bothers me. PCOS isn’t easy.
I’m not going to give up. I’m struggling but I’m still going to go after it! I haven’t been perfect but I know this struggle is going to be worth it!
The craziness of my life hasn’t stopped. Since the beginning of the year I have been on a sole persuit of happiness. I found myself home and jobless about three months ago. I found a job outside of the retail field that help me realize that I LOVE retail. So in a week or so I’m headed back to retail.
I found at the beginning of the year I had gained 50 pounds. 😳 I was depressed and wondering what did I want in life. Now I’m getting it back together watching what I’m eating and working out with a personal trainer.
Life is falling back into place and I’m bring you with me!
Sorry it has been so long since I posted about the “Who do you think you are?” mirror. I have added some sticky notes!!
I’ve decided to do it every week instead of every day. I have fallen off a little bit. I’ve had some things going on in life, but I’m back at in FULL EFFECT!!
I never stopped saying the things daily. It has help make me okay with being who I am and okay with all the things that make me uniquely awesome.
The next word on my mirror of “Who do you think you are?” is:
Starting a life were you have no regret is starting to look at your decisions in life as intelligent. Even the decisions that you believe set you back. At some point you thought that your choice was the right choice. Let me say this too…. just because a choice you made set you back to your standard, doesn’t mean that it was a bad choice. Every decision has a reason!!! Reasons being something beautiful in its own right!
I’ve heard other do a mirror of inspiration. I decided in 2016 I wanted to do one as well.
Who do you think you are? A question I struggle with. Constantly not thinking I’m good enough for all the blessings I have in my life! This year that is gonna change!!
Everyday I will add one sticky note to my mirror answering that question.
First word is DESERVING!!
It took me a while to write this post, simply because I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to say. Now that I have it together, but better time to post then right before New Years! Freedom is defined as “the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.” (Google) It’s ones independence, self-govern. That is exactly what I need for 2016.
We get so boggled down with the what has to be done instead of looking into what is going on at the moment. I reflect back on 2015 and realize that I don’t remember most of it simply because I had given it to my job, not even looking at what I wanted out of life. I didn’t get a chance to really think about it, one day I walked into work and knew this was not what I wanted for 2016. I refuse to be in the same spot next year, I knew staying at that job I would have been. Don’t get me wrong I am grateful for all the things that I had learned there but I was too comfortable! Comfortable was a problem. I was not in love with my job anymore, was not motivated to reach goals. I so consumed with completing different task at work, life was passing me by. I am glad to say in 2016, I will be starting a new job that I am excited about, motived to achieve my long time goals. I am super stoked to learn everything that this company is gonna teach me.
I want financial freedom. Taking every step possible to become financially free. Learning how to handle and maintain my money has always been a struggle for me. Budgeting and saving has never been a strong point. More like spending and shopping. I started saving towards the end of 2015 and I plan on continuing it.
I want freedom from my health concerns. As stated previously in other post, my weight. I have struggled with my weight and my relationship with food for about 10 years. Toward the end of 2015 I have playing a closer attention to it and the effect it has on my mental health. It has a huge impact on my mental health. That has to change in 2016. I want to gain control over my desires and maintain a lifestyle change.
Blog…blog…blog… Wonderful things are to come for this blog. Career wise, as previously stated in this post I have started a new job. I have multiple opportunities coming to effect in 2016!!! Can’t wait to share with you guys!!
Sometimes we need those little reminders that your not at the final stop in your journey. You are the only person who can take you out of the game.
Sometimes we get down and out about what is going on around us that we forget to look at the simple things. Such as:
- You started a brand new day!
- Yesterday is now in the past.
- Your breathing.
- The sun is shining and the world is spinning.
- You have something to eat.
- Someone cares about you.
And the list goes on.
No matter what anyone says it is so cliche but you are the only you. Dance in your moment, let your inner person shine. No one can match your shine…..NO ONE!
Have a great Thursday!!
As a plus size queen I never thought that I would even give this a second thought. Going under the knife to lose weight. I dint see anything wrong with it for the people that has had it done before or in the process of getting it done. For me personally I always felt that I could work it off.
I have recently been diagnose with PCOS. Which was a difficult pill to swollen for me. Not only is it difficult for me to lose weight but also makes it hard to conceive children. I have always deep down wanted children. But it also put my in a tough spot in my weight loss journey.
It is impossible to lose weight with PCOS, in my case. It just takes a lot more work and effort. All the past things I have done has failed. I really just wanna live a healthy life. But is surgery health? That is the question I’m still researching on. The surgery help fix some issues and create others. I am concerned about my mental health after everything. I do not want to be too small, I still want to be curvy and “plus size”. I would love to be a healthy 14/16.
I think I will give it another couple of months. I’m going to go see a Dietitian and see what they can do for me. I will also look into the surgery.
I’ll post on what I decided!