All I want for 2016 is….FREEDOM!!! 

It took me a while to write this post, simply because I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to say. Now that I have it together, but better time to post then right before New Years! Freedom is defined as “the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint.” (Google) It’s ones independence, self-govern. That is exactly what I need for 2016.

We get so boggled down with the what has to be done instead of looking into what is going on at the moment. I reflect back on 2015 and realize that I don’t remember most of it simply because I had given it to my job, not even looking at what I wanted out of life. I didn’t get a chance to really think about it, one day I walked into work and knew this was not what I wanted for 2016. I refuse to be in the same spot next year, I knew staying at that job I would have been. Don’t get me wrong I am grateful for all the things that I had learned there but I was too comfortable! Comfortable was a problem. I was not in love with my job anymore, was not motivated to reach goals. I so consumed with completing different task at work, life was passing me by. I am glad to say in 2016, I will be starting a new job that I am excited about, motived to achieve my long time goals. I am super stoked to learn everything that this company is gonna teach me.

I want financial freedom. Taking every step possible to become financially free. Learning how to handle and maintain my money has always been a struggle for me. Budgeting and saving has never been a strong point. More like spending and shopping. I started saving towards the end of 2015 and I plan on continuing it.

I want freedom from my health concerns. As stated previously in other post, my weight. I have struggled with my weight and my relationship with food for about 10 years. Toward the end of 2015 I have playing a closer attention to it and the effect it has on my mental health. It has a huge impact on my mental health. That has to change in 2016. I want to gain control over my desires and maintain a lifestyle change.

Blog…blog…blog… Wonderful things are to come for this blog. Career wise, as previously stated in this post I have started a new job. I have multiple opportunities coming to effect in 2016!!! Can’t wait to share with you guys!!
JSC 💛👑

Thursday inspiration 

Sometimes we need those little reminders that your not at the final stop in your journey. You are the only person who can take you out of the game. 

Sometimes we get down and out about what is going on around us that we forget to look at the simple things. Such as:

  • You started a brand new day!
  • Yesterday is now in the past.
  • Your breathing.
  • The sun is shining and the world is spinning.
  • You have something to eat.
  • Someone cares about you. 

And the list goes on. 

No matter what anyone says it is so cliche but you are the only you. Dance in your moment, let your inner person shine. No one can match your shine…..NO ONE! 
Have a great Thursday!! 

JSC 👑💛 

 

Contemplating Weight Loss Surgery 

As a plus size queen I never thought that I would even give this a second thought. Going under the knife to lose weight. I dint see anything wrong with it for the people that has had it done before or in the process of getting it done. For me personally I always felt that I could work it off. 

I have recently been diagnose with PCOS. Which was a difficult pill to swollen for me. Not only is it difficult for me to lose weight but also makes it hard to conceive children. I have always deep down wanted children. But it also put my in a tough spot in my weight loss journey. 

It is impossible to lose weight with PCOS, in my case. It just takes a lot more work and effort. All the past things I have done has failed. I really just wanna live a healthy life. But is surgery health? That is the question I’m still researching on. The surgery help fix some issues and create others. I am concerned about my mental health after everything. I do not want to be too small, I still want to be curvy and “plus size”. I would love to be a healthy 14/16. 

I think I will give it another couple of months. I’m going to go see a Dietitian and see what they can do for me. I will also look into the surgery.

I’ll post on what I decided! 

JSC 💛

  

Diets….will be the death of me…

I have recently started a new diet. Another diet of the month. I have struggled with my weight since elementary school. I’ve never lost a significant amount of weight, nothing more then 30/40 pounds. Like many of us I have always been on and off of an diet. This time around I decided to make a lifestyle change. Stop beating myself up for a simple mistake and down fall of eating the wrong thing. I have decided to make consent efforts to watch what I am eating. I have even started searching for new recipes. This time there is more hope. 

Wish me luck guys!

-Jae